Everyone has their own way.

Someday We'll Know.

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Title : Possible?

Seven more days to syf central judging! Its a public holiday tomorrow, there is supposed to be band practice (like wth we still have to come back on public holiday to practice because other performing arts groups are doing that), but it got cancelled the last minute. YAY, one spare day to study! Its hard to find time to study with band prac everyday. Crazy ah. Theres a GP test for the whole cohort this Sat, but band members are excused and so we have to do makeup test on Friday.. so more time is required. -_- With additional extra intense pracs, consultations, extra lessons all sacrificed, which means more make up to do. Fail tests and quizzes, more make up. Call us try not to fail, but with so many hours on the CCA, so tiring ya. Luckily my grades are not that bad. All I want to do when I go home is sleep. :D

I can't wait to get over it. Heard that during the JC2 forum just now, someone raised an issue to the P, to give us 5 days for study leave instead of 2. He said No. Then that student compromised by lessening the no of days, also cannot. The P said if either SR Choir or Band get a Gold medal, he will consider it.

When is 2 days of study leave enough? I'm going nuts now you know.
Sometimes I kind of ponder, why in the world did I join a Performing Arts CCA. Groups under Clubs and Societies also not bad right? Hehe.

I hope miracles happen!

In school, I have no sources of emotional outlet, no supply of punching bag, no venting machine to vent whatever I want to. Things started to dawn on me, one after another. I know I can't rely on advisor friends forever, because there are many things in life we have to face ourselves. When we meet problems, we must solve our own problem! Can't possibly go emoing and crying to girlfriends all the time. Too much of it irks people. Even if it doesn't irk them, you will feel bad to keep going to them. We can't bother the same people all the time. But, sometimes I wish I have a 24/7 source of humans I can rant to comfortably. Its bad for the heart to suppress troubles. (:

In JC, the many many friends in your life give up the A Level Route for all the nice, good reasons you can think of. Must be realistic and practical, must do what I like, I found my true calling, I realised what I truly want after one year, I don't like JC, I can't take it anymore, I think other routes are more suited for me... All the stories... you name it. One by one, they move out and drift away. Like the breeze, you will never know when they will come back again. I check out the Poly lives of my friends everywhere, most seem to be fitting in and doing pretty well so far. I wish I could steal sneak previews of their current lives.........

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Things keep going up and down.

Everyone has problems now. Shucks!

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Title : why?

Once again, I'm kind of in doom.

Friends asked me, 'how is school'?

& I will tell you how, soon.

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Title : unwary frog

We must be very, very wary of who we trust.
Because sometimes these friends may sabotage you behind your back.
& you fall into the cracks unknowingly and unwillingly.

all you can do is try to know who your friends are as you head off to the war.

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Title : You'll make it worse.

Poor elmo passed away tragically.
He was SHOT and DEAD, innocently.

He wished he could have a second chance...
but it was too late...

R.I.P.

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Title : I want to go back

Vietnam. :(

The days when we experienced extreme ends of our comfort zone, the winter nights, the trekking, the jokes, the food, the charity, the hospitality, the funny moments, the sweat, the peace, the joy, the simplicity, the laughter, all the fun, love and memories.

miss & love.

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Title : SR Olympics Day

More fun compared to last year and I'm burnt by the sun! :( Orion ranks 2nd. :)
& guess what? from next week onwards I have band practice everyday.....
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Most CCAs have stopped by now because exams are coming.
zzz I just want to go out there, try my best perform and get it over asap.
I can't do badly in studies yea. :/
I have to max. time usage.

this physical fitness thing, don't blame your bones, ur energy or your psychological state or that age is catching up with you. Perhaps you have developed a psychological barrier out of nowhere, but just use ur long legs to leap! don't blame your lungs, just run, continue running. push yourself.

someone, psycho me.

It has been a long day, long week. tiring.
goodnight lovelies!
sleep well this weekend. Yay. :D

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Title : wayyyy too much.

the kiddy-ness in 17, 18 years old.

HEHE

These days were heaty.
So were the nights.
The weather these days.... oh my.
The nights had temperature of 32 degree celcius.
The night wind had a scale close to a gale.

What's wrong with the climatic change......

Lets step up environmental awareness! D:

No lessons tmr!

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Title : Iceberg's tip

Never conclude a verdict before you get the full picture.

I think there's a great misunderstanding here. The air is hazy.

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Title : Surrender.... not.

We should rely on ourselves to obtain information because news from others may be twisted.
Sometimes its better to depend on ourselves than to depend on others.

I had a long but worthwhile day today.

holding on and/or sticky?

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Title : alarm sound

Just had my school's performing arts night. Reached home pretty late & there's GP Compre test tmr early in the morning. Can't attend lecture after that because SYF practices are at priority now, which means not getting back my test score and march assignment tomorrow.

Girls had circuit training today, theres this station where we have to climb the opposite block from bottom right up to the top. -1o storeys. Automatically, I got reminded of the Vietnam trainings last year.. Ahh those times gone and the part where for once i went back to time.... Oh the reality is, we can't turnback time, we can only reminisce! Stop dreaming! :P

There are reasons why I look forward to weekends and why I don't. Reality is sinking in. Its scary.

:(

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Title : Watch me shine

I still remember I started on this new blog when I just completed my A Level MT and PW exams last November. My posts during that whole month were mainly all about social and my then-current school commitments. Scrolling down the Nov. archive, I see posts and rants mostly about my pre-Vietnam trip activities and beautiful days spent with girlfriends. All these activities certainly had one great impact on me. I remember that times where I LOVED to upload photos on blogger & that period of time was one of the greatest days you could have. See, the pre-excitement of flying away faraway on a new adventure...

Waheeda and I were inseparable. We were the bestest of the besties. Its like, she is always etched in me. Whenever I go, somehow I talk about good things of her. Things just become harder after that incident. No one wanted it to happen. Its really difficult for things to ever be the same again because some scars that brings ugly memories will always remain. Plus, we are in different ~~courses~~ schools now, different lifestyles, different schedules so tendency that we will drift apart is much higher. I miss those days in school where we do stupid things together, like sneaking pass each others' classroom, then we will sneak out of the classroom when class was about to start to go toilet together, when actually we had other motives... we would share pocky, cookies and ice cream and she always offered me most of her food... every week we will wait each other outside the classroom to walk to our H1 Lecture venue together, then after H1 lect. ended we will wait for each other outside the Lecture hall to walk to assembly together. We would wait for each other after our CCAs ended to go home together.

I used to be able to tell her everything so openly, SMSing her freely, but after all that happened, we just became crammed up. Its just so difficult to initiate talking sometimes. No one could take ur place. I thought we knew each other inside out, but after that incident, maybe we don't really understand each other much. But I did learn a lot from whatever that happened & from there I moved on and realise much, more things. So it wasn't really that bad in some sense. Memories just flowed back, 2008 was a great year in a sense that we found each other. Supposedly, the years ahead were to stay the same or even greater, our friendship could continue blooming, we had many plans..... Wawa, remember this sweet letter u wrote me saying you would bring me to a grand hotel to eat dinner with cherie on my birthday? Thats so cute..

I still dream of her sometimes and will ponder over it for moments after awaking. Deep deep down, I've always wanted to restore to what we were once like. There are many personal thoughts in me, most which I do not want to share. Now, I developed certain phobias but life still go on.

Perhaps some things are by fate's will. Maybe it was a blessing in disguise.

'No matter how we may drift apart over the month and years, I will still love my college bf to bits and pieces plus truckloads. ' Took this sentence from one of my past entries and the words are still valid now. I still love you, girl. If you encounter gloomy days or downs in Poly and need someone to turn to, don't worry I'll always be here for you to lend a listening ear and support. I promise.

Hope you have lots of fun in orientation, adapt quickly and cope well in Poly!

Love, loved and will always love you.
huahua

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Title : Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light

pictures

my new pinky friend -_

Mount Fuji pouch

yay, pink!

just here posting random pics :D

*#@% i'm fuming.

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Title : Just because everything is different doesn't mean that everything has changed.

Hello!

meow.

Luckily today, I met up with Cherie after what seem like ages, we finally 'went out' again! Lots of craps to catch up on. She's on the punk/gothic path. Haha. Ben was also around & we ate at hub before accompanying her to work. We stoned at her shop for very very long. Productivity rate didn't dip hor. She's been trying to make me contribute to her sales by trying to find my card to swipe. HAHAHA. Had lots of good conversation going on..... miss those days!

SRJC's Project Work Results were great. We have been making huge leaps in improvements and this time round, the leap was extreme. SRJC's making progress. Grade Bs and Cs plunged very deeply with 2008's (my cohort) grades of 1.2% getting C, 30% getting B and % of As rose astronomically skyhigh from 1% in 2006, 7% in 2007 and 68.8% in my year! Yay SRians!

Have you ever thought of how friendship deteriotes and how contact fades? Perhaps it was because after both parties do not contact for some time, both sides will think, 'let the other person contact me lo'. Perhaps everyone will think, 'he/she should be busy. shouldn't disturb'. What happens? The bond still exists but both sides are reluctant to contact. Cos it will be like, after not contacting for what seem like ages, people will feel its weird to contact each other suddenly out of the blue and chat. its like, all people can say is 'so how's life in Poly?', 'how about you? coping well in JC?', 'how's life recently?' How weird it is to talk so much after not talking for so long. So the contact is broken for life. But the friendship remains strongly....its just the feeling of 'nothing much to talk already'. People may find out how the other is doing through mutual friends and they will feel glad as long as the other party is doing fine.

How does this feel?

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Title : lovedpinkpurpleartboxdate

station ery
organiser
waffles
pan cake
l-o-v-e
citytote
gal pal
panda
friendship
sport
paris
retailtherapy
jojo
yoghurt
night streets
peace

a rainbow brightens up one's day!
is it possible to find the end of a rainbow?

pw results coming out this thurs...
SRGCE interview tomorrow... hope my wish is granted. hehe..

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Title : Its hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go.

I always thought that its okay to be a loner, as long as you produce grades in school.

Those grades will made up for being friends-deprived. So what if you don't have much friends? One shortcoming would be compensated by other good things, in this case, the grades.

But whats the purpose if you are a nerd, do well in studies but don't have social life? Whats your motivation in school?

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